i do not seek for understanding in anyone, nt tt understanding really exist btw human?

looking back, i really make a fool of myself

trying to piece things back when its no longer thr

trying to make things work when others might not really make an effort to

past sometimes hv to really to b past,

no matter hw hurting it is to let go

or shall let future make figure its own way out

explorsion dun comes with a single chemical, its accumulated n den, it reacted.

might b all b misunderstanding, miscommunication.

interaction may or may not exist btw some human,

but most impt is the communication, nt juz by words, its thru the tots tt come fm within.

in a dark room n shouted
all u hear is echo, or worst, nth.
no matter hw much u wanna get close to the other end,
it seems like u nv able to,
regardless or the fact tt u were once at the end.

ever feel that u r left alone in tis world…. when u r trying hard to win the battle of life. but no matter hw alone, i guess juz hv to kp moving on…

DANG….. oh ya.. tts my latest greeting in msn or sometimes sms… will it piss u off? i hope it does… lol… Ed’s so cool… he said… y need to define frens? Yeah, im juz being abit silly. anyway, 1 guy told mi b4, u hang out together is to chill, relax n enjoy. y den hang out with ppl u dun enjoy with… actually im quite an ez going person la, but as a fact, i dun click with everyone. haha… im juz too unique (weird).

hw long is ur msn contact list? n hw many do u really chat with? likewise for mobile.

i dunno… but seems like some ppl like to pop out fm yrs of MIA n said.. HEY, I’M UR FREN, U SHLD TINK WAT I TINK N I TINK WE SHLD ALL DIE TOGETHER…. lol…

mayb im more into details… some nt so click, might like or dislike, will juz call colleagues or classmates, whichever tt they come fm. can click n meet more often jiu can call frens la. i got a few gd frens, n another few best frens but onli a couple of close frens, will always b thr for listening ears or reading eyes (as in MSN or SMS la), or juz b thr to accompany mi, coz im feeling bad…. n can really appreciate mi for whu i m (esp my frankness).

For those gd or close frens tt i kinda dun contact liao, i’ll definitely still b thr for u when u need mi. its kinda fate tt b frens, but most of the time, u wun hang ard with the same gp of ppl all ur lifetime…. or hv times whr views clashing…. mayb fate its till thr onli? juz move on with different frens ba… but i hv alot of frens go off n come back again de… so sometimes its purely a cycle. so if u come back n we still click, welcome. if not, take care..

mayb oso bcoz im a lazy person, dun like to make effort in most tings. haha… to a certain xtend la. most tings force le oso no use or no pt rite…

a potential post was taken up, shld i look for other job? sooooo bored at my job now, n hv to act bz, tis is stressing. haha…

watched one movie for each of the past 2 weeks, Da Vinci n Xmen… i wanna read Da Vinci… seems so cool, im always attached to tt kinda movies n stories. the show is nice (i tink if u read the bk b4, u will tink tt the show’s a disappointment). But den, y ppl always like to compare book to show? its shld b no whr near, hw thick is ur bk? n hw long is ur show? Xmen is cool… watch it too..

been reading Deathnote lately, its a comic. thr’s a movie for it coming up in Japan, it looks vry cool, by looking at the site. The L in the show seems to be coming life out of the comic. http://wwws.warnerbros.co.jp/deathnote/ duno if it will ever b out in SG or not sia..

lol… sorry to all that i had hurt previously… im sooooooo sinful….

i wanna get serious with my life, but i tink when im 21 la… let mi play a couple of mths more 1st….

i really wanna get a break on my bd…. permission nt granted by my parents… haiz… had arguement again, real down, my plan is trash… but lets c la, i haven plan to obey yet. will i ever get my freedom? lol… haiz…. dun get it man, if she dun let mi play nw, hw can i play when i ever get my own family rite….

life is juz so fake n unfair….

i seen a few of my frens in tt lately… self pitiness… i been in it b4 too, mayb nw still abit now. i guess its human nature. human loves themselves, dun wanna get hurt, betray, feel unwanted. so they announce hw sad or down they r, thru actions, words, knowingly or unknowingly…. so tt ppl tt r kind enough will gif them the love, care, n attention they wan. sorry, but im a unsympathetic person.. i juz feel tts so pathetic to behave like tt, n onli ownself can help to feel better. dunno… mayb i deeply believe tt, u shld b onli depend n answerable to ur own emotions. but if it really does help to show tt u r sad, or b an fallen angel, go ahead n mess up ur own life.

hahaha… im not angry or anyting… juz wanna write out hw im tinking. abit messed up in my brain rite nw. alot of tings i saw or heard lately really clash with wat i believe. im open to changes n new ideas, juz tt i need time to tink over.

i’m crazy abt tis ling er ger lately. her real name is liu yi fei.
one of my net frens happened to like her, and found some pic n sent to mi. amazed…
<<< She looks like selena fm SHE.

<<< She looks like Zhang bo zi…

Amazing rite? lol…. but most of the time, she look like herself.

my life nw— slp late (ard 3, 4am), and woke up ard noon. terrible lifestyle huh… haha…

watched with carol tt day, nice movie actually. but hor… i tink got age gap, coz its abt love n marriage. i’m still nt to the mind of marriage, seems like a faraway word. actually did tot of it… wat if blur blur struck with a guy for years in r/s, in the end oso blur blur marry him. lol…

1st day of jobless, nth much. slp, slack, watch vcd. yes… vcd… haha… xian jian qi xia zhuan. for those tt dunno mi… i”m a super lazy person. i wanted to watch alot of shows, my sis bought lots of nice vcd, but den, i’m dun like to on the show myself. so unless my sis’s ard n she on it, i will nv watch. but den, xian jian too nice liao, dun wana miss it, n miss ling er… haha… so pretty. tis is nt the gd pic of her, fm wat vic said… but its kinda difficult to get her pic online. my advice is, watch the how urself n u will noe. keke..